It’s time
So sorry for the lack of blogging, but man sometimes life is crazy and the last thing I want to do is sit down and re-live the craziness of the day. But then sometimes and idea strikes you and you have to write. its time.
There’s a musician I know who is an awesome friend to Park City Younglife and just a really amazing singer and song writer. His name is Josh Rosenthal and as I was listening to Gotta Get Out, my favorite of all his songs, I was struck with clarity about my move here to Park City.
The song speaks of running from a town you’ve grown to hate, and just are dying to get out of. At first this seems to be so easily related to my life just cause I really did pack up and get outta town. But as I look at my life now and my life back east I realize it was never a town I was trying to get out of or a person I was trying to get away from, but really it was who I had become I was ready to get away from. And obviously my first few months here were not a huge change for me because in so many ways I let myself stay the same. I let my old bad habits stick around, I replaced old temptations with newer ones and searched in all the wrong places for the same old things…
Now as I start this journey onto Young Life staff I realize how much of my life has finally changed and how many things I still need to work on. I find now that I finally was obedient to what God was trying to tell me, it a little easier for him to start working on the rest of my life. I have left all my old identities behind. I am no longer am the life of the party, the drinker, the smoker, the guys girl, the daring one. I am no longer the good girl, the virgin, the churchy girl, the younglife leader, the great friend. I am leaving all identities behind, good and bad. A good friend of mine pointed out to me that I cling to my identities and those hinder my walk with Christ and even the good identities prevent me from finding and accepting my true identity in Christ. Truly the old has gone and I am no longer any of those things i used to once try so hard to be. So I guess I am finding new freedom in letting go of those old versions of allie and just clinging to the simplicity of my identity in Christ. Its has taken me a while to grasp all of this, but man it makes bad days easier and good days sweeter when I can find comfort in knowing that nothing in this world can change or take away the identity I have been given in Christ.
Of course this isn’t to say that I am not some of those things now and of course I am still keeping my good traits, but its when I let those things totaly decide who I am that it becomes a problem. So life is on the upward slope of cleaning up and simplifying. Its pretty awesome and definitely still rocky and painful. But freeing and full as well, and that really was all I wanted in the first place.
just allie
preach