A Moment of Clarity

Sometimes I feel like I spend so much of my time trying to figure stuff out. I feel like I run around all day doing stuff and inside my head my mind is racing around figuring stuff out as well. Sometimes I feel like I blurt out questions all day long at God without ever stopping to breathe or hear the answer. I know that for me listening to God and taking time for silence is a constant struggle and I think every once in a while God just feels the need to grab my attention and force me to hear Him out. This was one of those times.

As I sat on the grassy lawn of Red Butte Garden listening to KT Tunstall perform, I found my thoughts slowed down and in the silences of my mind came with amazing clarity the voice of God. Not actual words, but a feeling of knowledge and peace that has escaped me for a long time. I was suddenly made so very aware of God around me in everything. I saw God in the garden, in the mountains and in the sunset. I felt Him in the breeze and in the sun on my shoulders. I saw Him in the KT Tunstall, a beautiful petite woman with a soulful voice that appeared to explode out of her as if it was out of her control. I heard God in the melodies that traveled in the air, in the words of the songs, and in the tone-deaf voices of those nearby. All at once with overwhelming force I felt God saying “I Love You.” Its as if through all the beauty and wonder in the world around me God is just trying to say “I love you Allie! Can’t you hear me?” And most everyday I am too busy to notice and too busy to hear Him calling out.

But yesterday, perhaps due to the sensory overload, or maybe the calm produced by sweet red wine, I heard God’s declaration and could hear nothing else. Oddly enough at KT’s concert I listened, I mean really listened, to God for the first time in a long time. And this time the message was simple, “I love you Allie. Just wanted to let ya know.”

So I sat there, for the rest of the concert, silent yet surrounded by noise, and knew that I was loved. 

Now my prayer for you and I both is that our moments of clarity are not few and far between and we can be silent and still everyday long enough to hear God saying “I love You” and really know that its true.

 

 

 

A strange and cheesy post for sure and I doubt it makes much sense or that I really captured what I was feeling last night. But hey, I tried.

~ by lightandmomentary on August 22, 2008.